Selfish Ambition or Worship
When I raise up out of my bed, the first thing I think is guilt. Guilt for not getting up sooner. yikes. Am I already feeling like a failure? I clomp downstairs in the dark, all the children still snoozing. Pilates or Treadmill, hmm.. Pilates today. I push myself hard and for what purpose? This particular goal is to lose my baby weight. IS this reasonable? Am I ambitious to accomplish goals? Or am I ambitious to worship?
Are you goal-driven or Worship-driven?
Most days, I count a day a success if I accomplish my goals, complete the list, and call it good.
Was Jesus even part of it?
C.J. Mahaney in his book, Humililty, True Greatness says to cultivate humility is to ask God for help at the beginning of the day. This is an “of Course,” to many. Not to me. I usually get a lot done (by God 100% enabling me), yet fail to ask him for help or tenderly acknowledge His provision for me. When the job is done, when the day is done, I worship. I thank God for His love, His guidance, and Grace He has given me. Yet, God held my hand the whole time, start to finish. All that I did, we did together. My sin- is shaking his hand off. My stubborn self-suffiency.
I ambitiously work all day. I enjoy work. I love serving my kids. I delight in a clean house. How often as my mind is busy at work, my hands clean, care for my children, do I worship?
Why do I work? I work to my own glory, most days.
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