Attention as Worship

What do I give MY attention to?

In no certain order (what comes to mind): Tasks. Duties. Relationships. My body: working out, make-up, hair, food, etc. Reading. Studying. Writing. Sex. Emails. Driving my car. Cooking.  Shopping. Meal planning. Cleaning. Organizing. Ministry. Phone calls. Teaching school. Of those things, do any of them stand out in front with too much of my heart’s attention? Do I honor any of those things above Christ with my ATTENTION?

I give a lot of my attention to my husband and children and my friends. I serve them, enjoy them, value time with these people that I love. Yet, do I forfeit time with my Bible and prayer to love someone? hmm.

I give much of my attention to tasks, stewarding God’s resources.

Enter..sin. I give my attention to myself. What would I like to do today? What would make me feel good today? Who will give me attention, today? My heart wars against my desires…

Who or What gives ME attention? 

So, to change the words, helps me see the sin. Who will give ME attention today, what will give me what I want today.. Who will worship me today, or what object will bow down to me today?

I love to get attention. I love being in front, going first with speeches, eye contact, intimacy, emotional fluff, relational health and cosistent pursuit from those I give my heart to. Yet, somewhere sometimes the desire for those things crosses a line. The line is when the desire isn’t met, and I am disappointed too greatly.

Repentance:

For me, attention can be worship. Repentence is walking in the light over these heart struggles, SAY with the internet…The internet is a cold body, though. Rejection tends to be a blog’s middlename, if the motive is for attention. By, God’s grace, my heart is in check with sinful motives and Christ is changing me.

Repentance is holding passionate desires loosely. Ready to confess selfish desires. And in the disappointment, not to demand that I am worshipped.

On, my most obedient and worshipful days, I start out early praying before the sun and my family rises, to confess my sin, my battle over worship. That I would die and Jesus would be lifted up and my heart would be full of worship unto Christ. That my whole day would be in different expressions, giving attention, worshipping my God.

I pray my attention is wrapped up in Jesus more often and consistently. Too much attention to/of something MAY reveal an idol of my heart.

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